Monday, November 1, 2010

Life Goes On....

I lost a friend on October 22.  She was one of my employees for over a year and I've known her family for a long time.  April was a sweet girl.  She would do anything for her friends and often was the glue that kept her family together.  She had an infectious laugh and had a smile that would light up the room.  She said some of the most off the wall things and I would tease for it all the time!  She loved it...she would just giggle and say, "Oh Em Gee Sandy!"  One time she asked Mike Sullivan, "Are people from Spain just classy Mexicans?"  We all had a laugh over that one forever!  She was such a goofball! 

Andrew cared for her girls this summer and our families kind of became intertwined.  Her daughters, Savannah 5 and Brooklyn 3 were adorable chubby faced sweeties with long curly hair and her same beautiful smile.  She was only 27 years old.  

She had been battling Anorexia all her life.  Nobody ever knew.  She hid it very well and pretended to be healthy.  She took her life after what the coroner said was a fit of rage.  A side affect from not eating or drinking anything and her organs shutting down.  

I went to her funeral on Saturday and it was a rough day for all of us that knew her.  We all grieve in our own way but that day everyone seemed very lighthearted and it was more of a celebration of her life.  Her sisters and family did a beautiful job with their eulogies and had dozens and dozens of pictures of her and a slide show to music.  When I think of April, I will remember her sweet smile, that adorable laugh, and the way her daughters clung to her when she picked them up after work.  They loved their mommy and she loved them so much.  I'm so sorry that we didn't pay more attention to your illness April. 

If I have learned anything from this tragedy, it is to love the heck out of everyone around me.  To tell them every second I can that I am there for them and pay close attention to anything that may be troubling them. 

Rest in peace April and I will pray for your girls everyday... 

My poor hubby...

So as I stated before, it's been a long couple of weeks.  On Tuesday, the 19th, Andrew had another seizure.  It was a very hectic evening and I was helping my mom with something over the phone.  The kids were up and down the stairs, being loud and pretty much just driving me crazy.  Katie was at the top of the stairs and said, "Daddy is dying".  I thought she was playing so I shushed her.  Then she said it again.  This time I yelled up to Andrew and he didn't answer.  I ran upstairs and he was in the middle of a very bad seizure.  He was on the floor and Joe and Nathan were yelling at him to get up.  I panicked and kept trying to dial 911 but accidentally hung up on them 6 times in my panic state.  It was awful.  He finally came to after about 45 seconds (it felt like hours).  He had no idea what had happened and he was definitely incoherent.  My poor babies were so scared.  We spent the next 5 hours in the E.R. while my mom watched the kids.

He's a lot better now.  It's been almost 2 weeks and he's finally able to eat solid foods again.  He bit his tongue really bad and it hurt severely to chew.  So he's been using a straw to sip aapplesauce by the gallons!  It was a horrible experience, one we never want our kids to go through ever again.  We are all watching him like a hawk and he is seeing a doctor and getting to the bottom of the problem. 

So keep us in your prayers, our family would really appreciate that!      

Kicking it up a notch...

I haven't blogged lately because there has been so much going on in my life, so I will do this blog in sections.  Since my last post I am still walking everyday and the days I cant walk my normal routine, I do some kind of exercise.  I walked on top of Red Rock parking structure one day, ran up and down my stairs when it was raining and I parked almost across the street at the grocery store when I knew that night would be busy.  I'm very motivated!  I'm not seeing much in the results department but I feel so good!  So this can't be wrong!  Last night for trick or treating we must have walked 3 miles!  I sure felt it before bed and this morning.  As the days gone on today, I'm feeling better and want to walk tonight...maybe a little further since I know I can do it! 

I'm still eating breakfast everyday and eating less at night and I never eat after I walk!  I'm going to clean out my garage this weekend and make myself a designated workout area.  I've always wanted one and now I will try to set it up.  I love music so I will crank it up and work on the tread mill and I'm hoping I can add some equipment to my routine.  I'm thinking to start I will get some weights.  If anyone has any suggestions, I'm all ears!  So thanks to everyone for all their love and support!  XOXOXO   

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

New beginning...

So, tonight began my life change!  I am totally changing how I treat my body and what I put in it!  I have known I've needed to make a change for a long time now, but lately I have been feeling so low energy and just overall yuck!  I never, ever eat breakfast and I am not usually hungry until around 11:30 and I feel starving hungry for the rest of the day!  After the kids go to bed, I just snack, snack, snack (on all the wrong things of coarse).  I sit at a desk all day and have no exercise at all...I HATE that I am becoming a couch potato!  I have tried a million and one diet and exercise routines and nothing has ever worked! 

This is going to sound nuts but I went to bed last night thinking about this.  I always do, when I'm laying in bed, but by the time I wake up, I forget all the motivation I had!  So I set my alarm to blaring Spanish music (cause I knew I'd say, wth?) and it worked!  I got up, ate breakfast (raisin bran crunch...mmm), ate Chinese for lunch, skipped in and out for dinner and went for an evening walk with my family.

I already feel so much better and now I decided I would blog about it.  I have a lot of people in my life who just love me unconditionally and I really love them for that, however, I really need encouragement to get in shape and eat right!  So, if your my family, friend, (or husband, wink wink..) please tell me to keep going, don't stop and well, frankly, put down those french fries!!!  My hopes are that blogging about it will keep me motivated and be held accountable!  XOXOXO

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

My tender heart...

Oh Nathan, my sweet little tender heart!  He is our love bug!  He is always so sensitive and sentimental.  When we took Katie to her kindergarten orientation, he teared up.  He turned around and looked at me and simply said, "Memories" and then pointed to his tears, which of coarse made me tear up.  (Guess that probably means he gets it from me) He is always doing things like that.  Tonight was no different.  Now my kids have their fair share of fighting just like everyone else's kids do, but it moments like this that make me just love them so much more!

Katie was doing her rounds of goodnight hugs and kisses and she went over to Nathan who was busy playing on the computer.  She laid her head on his shoulder to just say goodnight and without saying a word just patted her head so lovingly.  It melted my heart and thankfully I had my phone handy and snapped a picture to capture the moment!  My heart is filled with love....

Thursday, September 30, 2010

My sweet daughter!

My sweet little angel.  She loves the color pink and all animals!  She says she loves us 50 times a day and is always the first one in our family to give kisses when we walk through the door or leave!  I could spend all day watching her play and sing to herself.  She is just such a little love bug!  Today her daddy was telling the kids he would give them each 500 hundred bucks if he won any money on a game show and she said, "I want bubbles!"  and we said why bubbles and she said, "Well I dont have anymore"...my sweet simple girl...stay like that forever please?  Thank you...

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

OFF WE JOE...

What a week so far!  Joe, my oldest, is still going crazy for the girls and is now "going out" with his ex-girlfriends best friend...eek...not a good plan kiddo!  Guess all that blond hair of his and his good looks are getting him more attention then we ever would have thought!  Wish he spent more time on his grades then those darn girls :(  My husband had "the talk" with him last night and he couldn't stop giggling.  He started the conversation in the living room and before it got graphic, Nathan, our 7 year old, was pretending not to listen while he was reading.  A couple of times he just said, "ew" then he finally looked up and said, "Puberty is gross"...yes Nathan puberty is gross, mama agrees...

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Memories...

I have been thinking of starting a blog for a while now.  My kids are growing up so fast and I really enjoy sharing their stories!  I had a my space a while ago and I recently looked at my old blogs.  It was such a joy to read all the silly things I wrote and wonderful memories I shared.  So, I followed my beautiful friends lead and decided to start a blog of my own....